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Mar 7, 2013
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and another thing

I am dead tired of hating myself. Dead fucking tired of it. It wears on me, it wears on the people closest to me, I’m fucking done with it. 

As hard as it is to get out of the depression loop, as hard as it is to break patterns, as much progress as I’ve made and as as frustrating as all of this can be, I think I have to start here: with pausing myself as soon as I notice the feedback loop, noticing what I’m doing and saying to myself ‘This isn’t helping you. This isn’t helping anyone. This isn’t true.’

  1. amaltheiasometimes said: If you need anybody, you just let me know when and where to show. I’ll be there. <3
  2. youeatdogfood said: i find you to be very inspiring and helpful and this post is going to help me and i hope you’re able to find a way out of the loop soon.
  3. megzam said: Same. <3
  4. kittykittybangbang said: YES.
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